I can’t remember the last time I felt this good and I cannot not contain myself, I need to share this with someone, everyone! Honestly, I really can’t remember how long it’s been since I had this feeling which is more like an abundance of feelings- they are bursting out of me! Is this a natural high?! I am going to take a guess at how long it’s been since I have felt this…maybe since before I had kids? That was 14 years ago. This even feels older than that…maybe since I was a kid and it was the night before Christmas? Honestly, I feel THAT good and excited, it’s almost weird!
Today I woke up feeling incredibly well rested, HAPPY and inspired. All of this on a day that in the past I may have felt at my worst! Today is the day after Thanksgiving, a day that in the past I have woken up hungover from an excess of food, stress and alcohol. Excess of stress because I used to do most of the cleaning and cooking. This year I was most thankful for my lessening need to be in control so I suggested a pot luck. Also, the culture in my home has changed.
It used to be: “This is what’s cool around here- exorbitant amounts of food are purchased and cooked then extreme eating, drinking and debauchery is expected, encouraged and celebrated. ‘Cuz, it’s Thanksgiving! Oh and I have to cook it all because I don’t trust anyone else to do it right and I want to have an indulgent amount of leftovers to keep the extreme eating going for a least a week. I’ll probably be too stressed cooking and cleaning to really spend time with anyone but that’s to be expected ‘cuz it’s Thanksgiving!”
The new culture is: “Connecting with the people at the party is really important, so is the shared experience of all being together watching the kids put on a performance and eating nourishing foods. There are lots of amazing options for alcoholic and non-alcoholic beverages including hot golden milk, mint tea and spritzers. Giving my body what it needs (and a little of what it wants) feels amazing. If I feel like having pie, I am going to really enjoy it and be mindful while I eat it. I’m so thankful for everyone here and the abundance of food and good energy in this house.”
My life has changed soooo much over the last year. I have had so many small little wins along the way but today is the first day that I am deeply feeling just how far I have come.